Emotional impact of adult acne

Any other adults male dealing with severe adult acne? How do you deal with it emotionally? I have zero self esteem. Hide from the world. Don’t see anyone anymore, no family functions just say I’m “busy”

I have severe nodules that last for weeks or months. It’s soul crushingly embarrassing and disgusting to look at. Knowing other people see me and think “eww WTF kinda gross disease does that🤮” is devastating. Dating is out of the question.

“It’s what’s in the inside that matters” PUH-LEASE. I wasn’t born yesterday. I’m very aware of how important your physical appearance is for everything. It’s how the world sees you.

The depression is crushing at the moment and with it only getting worse and not getting better there is no end in sight. Dr. Said it takes time for anti-biotic to work (2 weeks in) but I’m afraid of scaring and might have to start taking accutane.

I had no acne problems at all for 15 years. Then suddenly I ween down on methadone to a very low dose and lose 35 lbs at the same time and the severe acne showed up and shows no sign of slowing down after 2 months.

How did you all accept your situation in a healthy way? I’m not talking about a blemish you throw an acne patch on that goes away over night. I’m talking 5 pea sized nodules all over my face and neck bright red, inflamed, jutting out so far. I want to crawl in a hole forever.