I had sex with this girl who I hate

We met in high school because of mutual friends and from the start we didn’t like each other much. When we got into college was when we started hating each other. I don’t really remember cuz I was drunk but we got into a pretty heated argument that led us to curse each other out and our friends dragged us away. We saw each other again at a club where we were both sober and we ended up in another argument. We knew how to read the room so we were standing to the side and we were again arguing. There were 4 more instances where we would either argue or ignore each other until yesterday.

We were at a New Year’s party and at one point we ran into each other and we were the only single ones and we were also horny. We ended up just arguing. Honestly I feel like the only reason that this happened was just because of how horny we were. We were in a secluded area of the house and were in each others faces. At one point she kissed me and I kissed her back. It’s kind of obvious what happened from there.

I’m honestly torn up a little because as much as I hate her that was the best sex I’ve had in my life but on the other hand I don’t want to talk to her at all.

MAJOR UPDATE: Yesterday was one of our friends birthdays and we decided to change the venue from his house to mine cuz his parents were going to be coming home pretty early the next morning and mine are on vacation and my brother and sister are at their friends houses. So the whole party started at around 6:30ish so my friend who's birthday it was came a little early with his gf to help set everything up and his gf was the plug cuz she's 21 and he just turned 20 today. Everyone got to my place at around 7:30 cuz no one in the friend group knows how to be anywhere on time unless it's getting weed. I'm going to be honest I didn't think that the girl I don't like (I'll call her H) would come. Well she ended up coming with 4 other ppl and we just looked at each other but didn't say anything. We all ended up debating on whether to get high, drunk or both before dinner and the cake or after. We ended up voting and it ended up being after. Well turns out some of the girls in this group are straight up feins and are 4 slices of pizza in 5ish minutes. There's 7 girls and 8 guys (one of the guys is asexual but a really good wingman). Anyways they got 4 joints and went to my upstairs balcony to smoke. After everyone was done with the pizza we called the girls down and they were pretty high but H seemed sober. It was kinda funny watching the girls try to sing happy birthday cuz they would constantly just laugh every 3 words. I took about whole 5 minutes to finish the song cuz all of us found it amusing. The birthday boys (imma call him that) gf dunked his face into the cake and said I got you (he did the same thing to her on her birthday)

After all of this everyone got their drinks and joints and started doing their thing. Everyone was either drunk or high except for me and H. The whole time everyone was just having fun. We played jackbox mostly and I had H on my team for talking points which I gotta say she was the best assistant l've had while playing that specific game. We ended up just talking or doing our own thing at around 10:15. I saw H pull out a lighter from her pocket and head upstair. I waited for about 2 minutes before going to the balcony (kinda obvious when you got a lighter in your hand.) I saw her smoking her joint and was about 30% done with it. I walked up to her and said you gonna finish the whole thing. She looked at me rolled her eyes and said 2 hits max. I smirked at her and proceeded to take the 2 biggest hits of my life and started coughing my lungs out. She started laughing at me and said wow you really are a dumbass. I told her to shut up. She told me to make her. Now I know this is where everyone's gonna yell at me and say OP FUCK HER SHE WANT YOU TO FUCK HER I am well aware of that but I told her that we need to talk about new years. She said what are you talking about idiot. Nothing happened while taking another hit. I said yeah very funny l'm be serious and she said yeah so am I wtf are you talking about. I just bluntly asked her if she likes me.

She stood there like a dear in headlights for 2 seconds and scoffed and said fuck no. (Yall were right she likes me. It was just the way she said it) I asked her why'd we have sex then. She said honestly I was just horny and ur the only single one in this group minus our one asexual friend. I asked her if you really were that horny you coulda just gone to the bar that's a 2 minute walk from our friends house. She said there's a chance one of those guys can have an std plus ik you're not going to kidnap me. I asked her how she knew that I couldn't have an std she said you seem like one of the whores that get tested regularly (She's right I get tested once every month). Before I could ask her another question she just said what are you my interviewer I'm not here to answer your questions Mr. Brown (that's not my real last name and she also got my last name wrong) I face palmed and said huh makes sense for someone like you not to keep up with last names. She said say that again. I fucking dare you too. Well ladies and gentlemen I said it again. She grabbed my shirt and uhh we ended up in my bed room. Also to the ppl who said that my friend group probably had bets on if we'd end up together your probably right because after we finished I went downstairs and everyone was gone but one of the couples. I told her and she said god damn it I'm stuck here with you. I said are you sure you don't like me cuz what's your excuse this time. She said same one as last time. She turned around and said oh yeah by the way l'm taking your bed. I told he I'm sleeping in it and she rolled her eyes and sa whatever. Yeah so you guys were all right I'm 99% sure that she liked me.

UPDATE 2: I've been kinda busy so I haven't been able to post any updates but here we go. So when I woke up H was still asleep so I went to the bathroom to brush my teeth take a piss and all that. I found an extra tooth brush and I left it out for H. I went downstairs and the couple who stayed the night had left. They left a note saying sorry for crashing at ur place next time we get food it'll be on us. I chucked a bit and started making so tea for me and her. When I finished straining the tea into the cups I heard the toilet upstairs flush so I knew she was awake. I decided to be nice and wait for her to come downstairs. I handed H her cup and she said thanks. I asked her if she used the tooth brush I left and she said yeah and ur almost out of toothpaste. We sat silently just drinking our tea but after I was done and went to put my cup in my sink I asked her do you want to re answer my question that I asked last night. She rolled her eyes and said which one. You know which one. She said no again but this time I decided to just go for it and kissed her. She pulled away and I said well I do (I kinda said it to bait her into saying she likes me) we started making out ended up on the couch and after an hour of fun time we were kinda sweaty and said I'm going to go take a shower. You can join if you want. When I got up she grabbed arm and pulled me back to the couch and kisse again and said I do really softly.

We had a long talk about why we'd constantly argue and fight about random shit every time we saw each other and why she always pushed my buttons to piss me off. She said the first college party where we met each other after high school was when I started liking you and when I was about to go up to you I saw you going back to a bedroom with a girl. I don't know why but it just pissed me off and I wanted to do something petty to the girl but when you got back I ended up just being a bitch to you and that's how it's been till now. I asked her why she decided to just kiss me randomly on new years and she said I was just horny but after we had sex that one time I constantly just wanted it with you and yesterday when I said make me I was actually so pissed at you for for not going in and asking me questions. I'm going to be completely honest since my original post everyone's been saying stuff like your gonna end up married and when's the engagement party. It honestly kinda got me to like her. We talked little bit more and l asked her if she wanted to give dating a shot. She said yes but she doesn't want anyone to know for right now and that she'll break up with me if I don't keep up the performance I have when we're having sex. We both smiled at that. I told her my parents and siblings aren't coming home till tomorrow. She gave me another smile and said so l can stay tonight. I said yeah sure. She kissed me again and said I'll take that shower if you still want to. I asked her if she had any extra clothes. She sai she'll wear some of mine. Here's the thing mosi く my shirts will probably go down to her knees. I'm 6'2 and she's 5'3. I turned the shower on to the heat I keep it at I didn't know that women love taking showers at but when I turned away to get my socks off the shower stick thing was at max heat. I deadass screamed like a girl and she got scared. I told her and she said it was cold at the temperature I kept it at. Me being me said I can warm you up. It's kinda easy to know what happened from there. The rest of the day was just us talking about what to do now that we're dating (her words not mine) when to tell people and a lot of sex. I told her there's no way that the group doesn't know abt this. She said yeah your right but don't out right say it ok. We kinda had our first date making dinner together and watching scream 6. She ended up falling asleep on me while we were cuddling and I carried her up from downstairs to my bedroom. I'm typing this all out rn because she left like an hour ago. So l've got myself my first girlfriend. My life really is a book.