To all the lonely women there

Do you feel ugly? Like growing up with people not really talking to you unless you talk first? I know it's a bit weird coming from someone who doesn't really love spending a lot of time with other people but I sometimes wish other people didn't ignore me. It doesn't help either cuz I also grew up with no person ever expressing any interest in me either. I feel really useless when I think about how other women, esp my age have had men asking them out and girls hyping them up. Before you say I need therapy, yes I do go to therapy but it's still hard not to feel these emotions about feeling worthless cuz no one's ever really wanted to truly hang out with me.