Is there anyone else OBSESSED with making friends?

Since my teen years, I’ve been obsessed with having friends, even though I didn’t always connect with them or feel attached. It’s been my obsession for years.

Today, I can easily say that 80% of my thoughts revolve around this.

Now I’m post-college and I struggle with it even more because I can't "collect" them easily.

Most of of the time, I don’t even get anything out of it, and I don’t feel close to anyone, but I just feel like life is about hanging out with people and talking to them all the time, like that’s what “normal” people do.

I don’t really focus on my own life because I spend so much energy on this.

I never actually feel attached to anyone—I just do it because I feel like I have to.

It's also happening that I'm pushing people away because I really seek them out too much and want to hang out often, even though I immediately want to leave once I'm there. I just need to know they're around, and that we'll see each other for a bit.

I'm realizing that I'm ruining my friendships, I don't know how to manage friends like others do. I don't have a healthy relationship with friendships; it's an obsession!

Anyone else feel like this? How have you dealt with it?