I am afraid I’ve slept with too many guys in college.

Hi. I’m 21 and my first and second year I did a lot of experimenting as I felt free and you know how it goes. Now I’m kinda scared one day if I meet a man I love that he won’t accept me. I have no stds I’ve never been pregnant. I feel emotionally in tact. I’ve just seen a lot of videos on the internet of men saying they wouldn’t mess with a girl who’s slept with X amount of guys because blah blah blah. I’m very much still a romantic and I’d hate if my college young phase would ruin my future love life. I’ve been celibate for awhile and I now understand how that may have been self destructive. I don’t like the body count analogy because what If someone’s active for a year then they’re celibate idk. I just find it silly to keep track and make people feel bad for doing something natural. I can still commit I can still love. I would never cheat. Just makes me feel sad and weird when I see those podcasts of men belittling women who’ve had sex with a good amount of people. Makes me feel icky.