i think im too sick for therapy?

i have major issues with communication. instead of communicating i shut down and runaway and its a big issue in my life. i runaway from therapists (and people in general lol) in the beginning before i can get close to them. i dont voice out my concerns and we jump in way too fast. I cant assert boundaries. i tried out therapy again and had 2 bad experiences. i think that i blow things up out of proportion often though and im not self aware of what.

one experience was actually really bad, i posted about it here before and got outside perspective and realized i was underreacting. but the other, i ran from her because she got my dead friends name wrong which offended me (i didnt voice that though) and then i told her about something i did sexually that i regret doing and felt shame about and i dont agree with and she told me that if it was consensual then theres nothing wrong with it. and that really freaked me out bc i told her i wasnt ok with it and i didnt wanna be convinced other wise. didnt voice this concern either, i just ran off on her and never saw her again. i have past sexual trauma and it was bdsm related done by an abusive partner. do u think that i overreacted? the issue is if someone told me no i would freak out i think bc sexual topic.

i struggle to get along with people im very isolated im way too sensitive and sick i need help but i dont think its possible does anyone relate? what am i supposed to do to help myself? i get so overwhelmed and shut down and freak out and panic and have experienced flashbacks in sessions. mind u i didnt get past like 2 sessions. also she told me to do therapy hw and i actually did it but she didnt bring it up at all and i felt forgotten about and unimportant.