I hate myself

This is the second week in a row it wouldn’t go in I keep pushing back it went all over my phone this time bro wtf I can’t do anything right. It took me fuckinf 6 hours to even get the plunger down and this shits expensive. Maybe this isn’t the right medication for me if I really can’t handle a small needle despite having 5 tattoos I pushed back because the sound and the feeling scared me and I really had like $200 all over my phone screen I hate myself so much for this. I can’t keep doing this anymore I’ll try to finish the box because it’s expensive but idc anymore maybe I really can try weight loss naturally it’s 4:30 am bro I should just sleep atp