Pregnant with my rapper boyfriend’s baby
Problem/Goal: Im really torn apart from everything thats been happening to me lately. I recently found out that I was pregnant with my boyfriend’s baby. He’s an underground rapper with close to no direction in life. All he wants to pursue is his rap career which is NONEXISTENT, and prior to knowing I was pregnant, we were always fighting about the littlest stuff.
CONTEXT: Live in kami for almost 6 months sa start ng relationship namin, until umuwi ako saamin and now ldr na kami. He visits me from time to time. Recently i found out that I was pregnant with his baby. I told him about it immediately hoping for his support and understanding. I also told him that I want to abort it. We’re young and we aren’t in the right mental state to take care of a baby. The main reason I had is that he’s never really taken care of me. I’ve just been passively taking care of him without asking for anything in return. Mag 1year na kami in this relationship yet ang nabibigay nya palang sakin is roses that he bought w my own money (lol) Everything from the food we ate noong live in pa kami to the outings we had, ako ang nagbabayad. He has a job naman, pero his priorities are all over the place. This guy cant even save up money, all of his money goes to recordings and shit. He even asks me for money to use para pang commute nya papuntang work. He always tells me na he’ll bayad when he has money na pero he never does. I feel like a money bank to him and when i bring it up, he calls me impatient and that i do not believe in him anymore. So ayun na nga, he wants to keep the baby and opposed the thought of aborting it. I keep telling him that we should get rid of it due to his financial stability and mine too but he keeps saying that he’ll ‘find ways’. We fought alot about it. He told me that we should prioritize the baby. Yet when I said he should prioritize taking care of me first before anything else, he said that he cant. His priorities are his rap career and the baby.
Should i leave him and abort the baby? Cuz im pretty sure that’s the only option i have now, no matter how much it hurts.
Edit: Sorry failed to mention that whenever we had sxx, and i would ask him to put a condom on, he’d ridicule me and mentally gaslight me into not using one which forced me to take pills that my body was rejecting.