I purged today….

I didn’t used to eat a lot, not like an ED or anything I don’t think but who knows. I mostly just ate when I was hungry and absolutely needed to eat and I felt pretty okay. I started wfh and gained a little weight (nothing too bad) but now I live with my boyfriend who is hungry/eats all the time. Being around him causes me to eat more and I’ve been gaining a lot more weight. I thought it was bc I was cooking more and so we had a surplus of food but I haven’t cooked in a week and I have been eating just as much. I’ve also tried working out which only makes me actually hungry and I GAIN even more weight. Anyways…… I gave in to the urges and purged for the first time today. If I’m being honest …I looked for this group bc I wanted to see when’s the best time to do it to actually get the calories out but now that I found this page, I’m researching it and idk…. I’m torn. I know I shouldn’t but I don’t feel like I can control it. Especially now that I’ve actually done it.