Sick

Im 25M and I am extremely sexually frustrated. I dont know why I can't get girls. I'm good looking and have a nice personality but I can't get dates with attractive women and i also cant get laid. It's contributing to my depression. Plus I just wanna go out and meet people and have fun but Im in a halfway house and have a curfew at 10. I feel like a little kid with a bedtime and a sober Sally because most of my peers are out drinking, doing drugs, having sex, meeting friends and having the time of their lives. Part of me doesnt care about long term sobriety anymore because life is so short and we're just gonna die anyway so what's life without a little risk. Anyway, ill probably just end up jacking off and feeling even worse about myself.