HATE IT!

I’m a new grad on a medicine unit, with 1:6 day ratio and 1:7-10 night ratio, and i absolutely HATE my job. I despise it. The workflow, the stress, the tension between nurses and CNAs, the ratios, EVERYTHING. I signed a 1-year contract with this hospital but I don’t think I’ll even complete it because I’m so unhappy and stressed all the time from this job. I worked 3 months prior to this in the ED in a new grad residency at the same hospital and absolutely loved it but they pulled me to work on medicine since they didn’t have any available positions to offer me at the end of my residency and this particular unit was short on staff.

I know nursing is stressful at first as you get used to everything but that doesn’t mean I should also hate my job. This isn’t for me, and honestly this unit has me reconsidering if I want to be a nurse at all. I don’t know whether I want to cry, scream or kick a wall because this is the first time I’ve ever felt this way about a job.