I feel embarrassed admitting this and even thinking it in the first place…

I’m on day 26 and I had this idea yesterday while driving to work that I could maybe extend an upcoming work trip this half (or even lie to my partner that I have a work thing in another city closeby) and get a hotel room to drink for a day or two.

I’ve been feeling so much better and I feel so ashamed to even consider lying like this to my husband. I am very scared of traveling for work because of this reason.

Please talk some sense into me and tell me how to cut this type of thinking in the bud.

IWNDWYT.

Edit: wow, each and everyone of you is amazing. Thank you so much for sharing, I can’t believe how much your responses have strengthened my resolve!!! Funnily enough, Friday afternoon my team decided to hold a workshop in Seattle so I will be traveling sooner than I expected for 3 days. I’m gonna talk to my husband to keep me accountable and I can’t wait to be back without drinking and be proud of myself! Again, thank you so much. I’ll keep this post as a reminder through next week. 💪💪💪