I have no eyelashes like none.

Im a 17 year old girl and my eyelashes were the part I loved the most about myself. They were so long and thick. Ive always pulled my hair out but especially this year its been so bad. I have no eyelashes like none its litterally bald the whole length. Its so bad. I wear falsies so its okay and doesnt show but I miss my eyelashes. I pull them out due to stress from school but I miss wearing mascara, I miss when getting ready would take 5 minutes rather than 30. I miss the time I could sleep rather than struggle to make my falsies look natural. Im so tired and I cant stop. Before I would hate it but now.... I like when I pull my eyelashes out, the pain and just the sensation. How do I stop this. I cant stop it because I like it and thats the problem. I once stayed clean for almost a year and then once school started getting stressful again boom. How do I stop this.... I miss feeling pretty bare faced....